Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Ben here, recently losing it...dun noe why, really off form for like three days le...wonders why..where have i lost myself...anyway, life goes on, must outdo my errors now and gain back my abilities, haha.....im starting to think its cos i focus too much on sports and keep going online for e first three months...like today, test for math graph, wasn't able to see thgh e ques..very suprised at those around me being able to get it...haiz...been real depressed..lol...wonder how i will be able to fulfil my duty as ogf if i continue like this till nxt week....hopefully, gt a few real enthu ones in my elementii then can lighten e load..but still, i will strive to regain my composture for coming orientation 2..haha
Posting day comin on le, wish to stay in aj....and good luck to those who wish for other pastures( njc, vjc e.t.c)...must remember..its nt the jc but yourself that makes ur life in jc fun...
yeah recently heard tht...not tht i boasting..hmmmm, ok lah, those tht heard wht gary said...e guy from kranji sec i tink..though its good to hear but i find it pretty unbelieveable ba..maybe cos i tend to act differently when away from the class..i dun noe why, like i said, i in class dunno why very lame de...haha....but seriously if possible, i would like to find out why he said tht n who are those told him tht..yah i noe some of u who read this would be like going"huh? What thing?? how come i dun noe or who is gary..." or some maybe even" i dun give e damn"..i suggest the latter ...if u dun noe what e hell i m talking about then dun bother to find out..
yeah, now havin second thoughts about havin a blog myself...later get addicted then its going to do me harm to my studies, i noe myself well nt cos i lack confidence bt i hav weaker self control i tink..then to get carried away by this things until only when i sit on my bed oneday n stare at the night moon to reflect things over, thyen do i realise these simple addictions.....i find the moon a perfect place to throw my thoughts at..its like nobody's planet..when i m sad or something i would do tht n the beauty of the moon will some how just take over...u all must try then understand de...singaporean people many a times just find this sort of thg wierd or stupid nt unless its for e sake of courting a girl...my friend once told me maybe i give good advice after telling her this...she er...i shall nt reveal names,nearly broke up with her bf bt her bf then said he wanted to save this relationship which threw her into a state of mental confusion....she was crying whn talking to me lor..so must help her to get over it, yeah...happy to say that she is now happy with her boyfriend...n asking me all e time whn i going to get a gf myself everytime we chat..what must grab e chance whn possible..its more diff to just find one whn you are a boy..its a truth in most cases....yup
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SIGNING OUT,101stAerial, midnight Ravens-skull leader 21(when can i return to the stars?)
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